Author Archives: Princess Manners

One side of my family all died (except for my grandmother) of cancers. I have the chance to get genetic testing and find out what, if any, cancers or other gene-delimited illness(es) I could fall prey to. I would get the test and find out what I’m likely to die of. But the information wouldContinue reading “Genetic Testing, Ho!…”

I’m employed again contract. But I’m making low money for FT, and the commute is long. Always complaining, I guess. The good thing about this job is that it does let me write somewhat. And it pays better than retail (hell, anything pays better than retail). But the commute into central Dallas to a factory/officeContinue reading “Back in the harness”

Well, the time-honored, obvious thing happened. I quit my PT job. It went well enough for about 7 months. Then the manager came over and gave me crap -again – about something minor – not being familiar enough with their tablets. Their tablets are Android. And all my devices are Apple, so no it wasn’tContinue reading “Hell No, Redux”

Dopamine is the feel-good chemical in our brains. It’s triggered by happy feelings of any kind. Apparently there is something called “dopamine scrolling,” in which a person scrolls through social media to get a hit of the happiness chemical. I have been dopamine scrolling a lot lately. S asks me all the time, “Are youContinue reading “Dopamine Addiction”

I got a 3-day-a-week part time job. The pay is above minimum wage. It’s at a plant nursery where I worked 3 years ago. Something is better than nothing. Also, I passed a first interview with flying colors for a software company. I have a second, two-hour interview with 3 people this Friday. Sounds taxing.Continue reading “Something Could Be Happening”

I don’t know how I feel, or how to feel. My life is saying “hell, NO” pretty consistently right now. In the past, when I’ve run up against roadblock after roadblock, I’ve eventually succumbed to the truth, that something is not well in the state of Denmark. Down the list: Marriage – pretty ok FinancesContinue reading “Hell, NO”

Thought I would be able to retry TMS, but can’t afford the copay this time. I get up at 5:00 a.m. to take meds so that that they click in before work. Sometimes they don’t work. On those days, I try to cope by venting on Daylio to myself. Sometimes, that helps. I have anContinue reading “There’s No Good Answer”

The famous statue from a grave at Savannah’s Bonaventure Cemetery. We were in Savannah for the weekend, and I suggested we go to Bonaventure. Once we started through the Civil War graves, Mark, who’d bought new hiking boots for the occasion, pulled them off and angrily threw them at headstones. The whole weekend I’d beenContinue reading “The Balance”

Toward the end of the summer in my first year of grad school, my boyfriend Jan returned from two months abroad, and we were together two nights before the end of the year party. I went to the party with my best friend, Melissa. I was feeling stoked and got a drink. Upon turning around,Continue reading “Because of Louise’s Butt”