Headaches

I’m starting to get some during and after treatment. Even the next day. Got one now. I take Naproxen. It does some good.

…Found out that TMS is not a cure. Many people repeat it. I haven’t noticed any change in mood or state of mind, so I don’t see that happening. Also my copay is $2,500 over the course of 5 months, and I make $2,800 a month. Who knows if insurance would pick up the rest of the tab for another go-around.

My care provider is a middle-aged woman who quit dyeing her hair – I like her for that – but otherwise tacit. I don’t know her story and probably won’t. But she asks all about mine: Complicity with meds, number of antidepressants I’ve “failed” (the technical term), etc. All the questions start to feel a little invasive.

It’s hard to work after a treatment. I’m working today ( Saturday) after having done nothing after Friday’s session. I have a pretty demanding workload, and they know I’m “undertaking a course of treatment,” but they don’t know the complaint. Probably assume it’s cancer, which is a bit more noble than emotional failure and lack of coping skills.

One of my now-distant friends posted that his stint as a voice actor didn’t work out, so he’s “onward and upward.” I don’t personally know how that sentiment feels.